A long time between postings!!

Back from the dead!
Well I am on my own for a little while as my partner is at our unfinished abode trying to finish it. We are kind of on a deadline because we have resigned from our current position but cannot go into a house that is unliveable. I don't know why i put myself in these positions!!
I guess I was just so fed up with work and thought I was having a major breakdown and the only way was to get the hell out.. I kind of convinced Andrew to resign and now I have to deal with his ever increasing stress levels plus my own. Fun fun fun....I must say though once I hit send on the email to our Director I felt a calm feeling wash over me. Itwas only brief but pleasant. Surely it was worth it? Okay so i am majorally stressed about putting my son in a new school and probably putting my 2.5 year old daughter in childcare, not really having anything concrete to move too and really scared about perhaps not being able to get clients for my new business etc and the list goes on and on.
Hopefully the old saying of closing one door and another opens rings true - and quickly!! And it better bloody be a big solid shiny new door with lots of bells and whistles on it...
I had a really nice Mothers Day. Cal made me a bookmark that spelt out MY MUM and then he said really nice things about me on each letter. Like M y mum is really cool. and Usually my mum makes me the yummiest lunches. Well U is a pretty hard letter to come up with. :-)
Okay I am off to bed.

A Broken Path

Such a long time between writings......... I have been rather busy and have found it hard to get the time to blog. I am thinking I may just shut down my blog and maybe start it up again when I have more time....
However every now and then I get the urge to write even when I am tired and ready for bed and then I think it is all worth it.
The topic tonight is troublesome friends/family. I have a person who is close to me that I worry about so much. I think I worry so much because I don't understand him. I just don't get how someone can have no respect for another person or have no regard for life at all. T o not care about what goes on around them or how their descisions good or bad have an effect on others.
I do get depressed and I know this person shares those black moments. In fact i am sure they engulf him on many an occassion. But what i don't get is that he cannot see that these moments do pass and that there is help out there.Or admit to a problem even exisitng.
How do you help someone who won't help themselves.? When a family hides things from each other to stop the pain this might cause each individual. Yet in the long run causing more harm then good by not allowing the truth to reveal itself to all no matter how ugly or embarrassing.
I fear that this person will do something that cannot be fixed and then where does that leave the rest of us.
I think now that I am a parent myself I couldn't bare the thought of going through so much pain and heartache from a child that you raised and loved and laughed with and loved some more, to a person that resembles your child on the outside yet appears so alien from what you thought you knew.
To this person who I worry about: I hope you see the light eventually and start to take the right path to recovery, self fullfilment and forgiveness, because the path you now travel is badly broken and in need of some serious repair.

Spring Cleaning in July

I seem to be springcleaning all over the place.The cabins at both parks are being done and my house has had a shake up. I think that is only because mum and dad are coming to stay!
On my path to organization I have been manically cleaning. I usually dislike spring cleaning the cabins and I must admit I have kind of pushed most of it towards our staff this year. However I do love to take everything out and wash and dry it and place it back all neat and pretty. Even the old cabins come up a atreat after a good scrub.

I have tried to go over and help to scrub walls and things and my daughter takes off out of the cabin and runs into the garden or into the laundry or anywhere that I cannot see her. So I run after her put her back in the cabin and start again. After a few thousand times of going back and forth the staff are loooking at me like, please go back to the office and leave us in peace!! hehe.

Back to my own house. I ajaxed the shower whilst showering tonight. The fumes were a bit out there!It is an old shower and does not look much better once cleaned. It is chipped in places and has water stains that are impossible to get off.I hope mum and dad don't think that I don't clean it!

Mum and Dad are going to lookk after the kids for a few days while my husband and I go to Brisbane. First time away from the kids. Scary..So mum and dad will be staying in our bed. So I bought an electric blanket. I don't particulary like electric blankets but I don't want Dad to be cold. It is one that has a woolley underlay. I must admit it is rather comfy. ,maybe it will stay on after they have gone home! I just hope the kids behave.

Rori has started to crouch next to me when she is going to the toilet. Pants on that is. Not at the potty stage yet. Although she will do a number two and then look straight at me and go Eww poo! Smart kid! Maybe not long now before she will be on the potty that would be good. Although I must say that disposables are oh so convenient.

Well I must go and mop the floors. Cal spilt Peaches and the juice all over the kitchen floor and it has that sticky feel to it at the moment,. Yuck...

Catchya

To Patent or to Trademark?

Watching mybusiness on TV this morning they were discussing trademarks and Patents. A lady had designed sleeping bag kind of things for kids to take to childcare called kindyswags which she had trademarked.
I hadn't really though about trademarks as much as i had often thought of patenting. You know all those big ideas you get that are a one off!

According to ipaustralia

"A patent is a right granted for any device, substance, method or process which is new, inventive and useful.
A patent is legally enforceable and gives the owner the exclusive right to commercially exploit the invention for the life of the patent. This is not automatic-you must apply for a patent to obtain exclusive rights to exploit your invention."

I can't wait to think up something that is worth commercially exploiting...


"A trade mark is not registrable if it is not capable of distinguishing your goods or services from the same or similar goods or services of other traders in the marketplace."

Apparently a trademark can be words or a colour, an object,shape or scent.

When I have a new idea I always think that the minute I tell someone that they are going to run off with it. Like the people in govt depts that say yay or nay about your idea to be patented could say nup and then run off and do it themselves because it is such a great idea.

Maybe I should just concentrate on staying with one idea and then running with it myself.

I also wanted to have a bitch about the Ralphs Bay Development Proposal by Walker Corporation. But it upsets me soo much I think I will dedicate a whole blog session to it tomorrow.
Catch ya

Forever Fearful

I went to buy a packet of panadols today knowing I had none left in the house. I did not have a headache i just hate not having them in the house.I thought to myself this is silly you don't have to get them right now I can get them tomorrow or the next day.. As a regular headache getter there is nothing worse than going through a whole night with your head throbbing and wanting to go to sleep but unable to shake the dull bang bang bang that is going on inside your skull.
Murphys law it is 10.30pm and I have a headache with no panadol in the house.I think I brought it on myself.

I have been coding invoices for the past hour and heard the news update concerning North Korea and the missiles they have fired off. 7 in total now. It scares the hell out of me. I just feel totally frightened. A kind of irrational fear. It is all consuming. I can never seem to take in news around me and let it go. Not discard it but just let it go. I remember as a child I would hear a noise outside the window and my mind would just run away from me thinking all the things it could possibly be. My older sister factually explaining the liklihood of it being a murderer or the wind moving the pomegranate bush's twigs on our window pane!

One thing I think of as an adult with children is how important it is to make them feel safe when they are fearful of something. I don't know if I now believe in God as such but as a child it was always comforting to know we would go to heaven after death. At least I could go to sleep after one of mums chats. I hope I instill that same kind of comfort to my own children when they feel afraid. However it poses the question for me as to how to make your fears as an adult seem not so frighteneing when you know all the facts.

I think I will go to bed and rub some lavender into my temples and try and get an image of me as a 12 yr old on the bars at gymnastics- Doing kip up after kip up. I never liked the magnesium on my hands and the blisters that would form on top of blisters. In fact bars was my worst event but every night when something was bothering me I woulsd get this image of the bars and it has stuck with me right through my life to date. Wierd.
Night..

One in 62 chance!!

A strange thing happened last night. Andrew and I were folding up our annuals yearly invoices and putting them in envelopes. We had 4 piles of 62 pages in each.,1 for invoices,1 for policies, 1 for lease contracts and 1 for a general hello letter.
We have 62 annuals at the park. Anyway we going at a cracking pace, (probably because I realised i was folding faster than Andrew and told him so which prompted him to up the ante.I can't even fold invoices without turning it into a competition!!) and we finished in record time.
When we had finished we had 3 piles that still had one sheet on each. (No invoice) So we had picked up two customers invoices together and put them in an envelope. Not good!!
Boring story you may think but heres where it gets weird. Andrew picked up an envelope, opened it and the missing invoice was behind it. Out of 62 envelopes.Unbelievable!!!
So then we played the - your so psychic game all night....When we hopped into bed Andrew brought the crossword with him and turned OFF the light. So then I thought perhaps he had developed Superhuman powers and could read at night. He tried it just in case, but no; his superness had left the building!!
Night...

10 Green Bills

Jan and Kevin gave us $1000 to spend on our new house. Pretty stoked. Actually pretty stoked that all 10 green bills made it home without burning a hole in Andrews back pocket!!We are thinking plaster sheeting, new floorcoverings, a shower bay, a new fridge, not all those things obviously but maybe one or half of one of those things. The list is rather endless but hey thats renovating for you.

We have bought a 3 bedroom home that needs some work. It is in a place called Dodges Ferry and has a great view of the bay. Which was the selling point!! Andrew has taken off all the architraves (unsure of spelling) so it is now rather drafty in the house. That is an understatement, bloody freezing to be exact. Lucky it is only our stopover house at the moment.
Mum and Dad's new abode is exactly 4 minutes drive away, haven't walked it yet, I am thinking 10 minutes when the tide is low and maybe 20-30 minutes around the roads.
I love their new house. It is right on the river.The water at the end of their jetty is crystal clear, so pretty. Dad wants to put a new shed in and put floor boards instead of carpet. Afew huundred other things that will be essential,lol. At least it will keep them occupied over the cold months to come.....

I got an email from a friend of mine in WA. Her little girl who is in grade 1 won Junior champion girl for years 1,2,3. A champion in the making? Maybe. Nice to hear from them all. They are taking off in their camper up north, I am a tad jealous. I feel a bit stuck at the moment.I am dreaming of running a resort on some wonderfully warm island. Actually forget the work part of it just laying on a beach doing not very much at all on a wonderfully warm island sounds better!!

I made a great big pot of chicken and veg soup tonight. Everyone ate it all up, no complaints in fact a few compliments. Cal got through 2 bowls. Can't have been too bad!
I have invoices to code so I had better do that before Cal adn Rori come back with Macka.
See ya