Wednesday, August 16, 2006

A Broken Path

Such a long time between writings......... I have been rather busy and have found it hard to get the time to blog. I am thinking I may just shut down my blog and maybe start it up again when I have more time....
However every now and then I get the urge to write even when I am tired and ready for bed and then I think it is all worth it.
The topic tonight is troublesome friends/family. I have a person who is close to me that I worry about so much. I think I worry so much because I don't understand him. I just don't get how someone can have no respect for another person or have no regard for life at all. T o not care about what goes on around them or how their descisions good or bad have an effect on others.
I do get depressed and I know this person shares those black moments. In fact i am sure they engulf him on many an occassion. But what i don't get is that he cannot see that these moments do pass and that there is help out there.Or admit to a problem even exisitng.
How do you help someone who won't help themselves.? When a family hides things from each other to stop the pain this might cause each individual. Yet in the long run causing more harm then good by not allowing the truth to reveal itself to all no matter how ugly or embarrassing.
I fear that this person will do something that cannot be fixed and then where does that leave the rest of us.
I think now that I am a parent myself I couldn't bare the thought of going through so much pain and heartache from a child that you raised and loved and laughed with and loved some more, to a person that resembles your child on the outside yet appears so alien from what you thought you knew.
To this person who I worry about: I hope you see the light eventually and start to take the right path to recovery, self fullfilment and forgiveness, because the path you now travel is badly broken and in need of some serious repair.